You and I, we go way back, to the beginning. We’re connected in a way no one could or ever will understand. We’ve been there – together – through it all. We’ve cried in the shower (sometimes to sleep too), we’ve done stupid things and told silly jokes.
It has always been you and me. Always.
I know how you are feeling. I know the exhaustion that stretches across your skin and the emptiness in your heart. I’d be crazy not to because I am you. It has been a long year, my dearest. And, you’ve survived so much.
You’ve opened your heart and had it crushed. Seen vulnerability and betrayal, grief and broken spirits. You’ve cried in a doctor’s office and alone on your bedroom floor. I know all you want to do is leave it (and everyone) behind. But girl, I’m so very proud of you. Because despite it all, you have managed to keep your head up and continue fighting through.
Stop being so hard on yourself. For one day, it will all make sense. All the pain, hurt and frustration will become worth it. Everything happens for a reason. And remember, you are in the exact place you’re meant to be right now. Breathe, be patient and accept reality as it comes. Accept life for what it is.
Don’t take everything so personally and try not to let others bring you down. Most of the time, things have nothing to do with you (or your little girl) and everything to do with the other person. Ignore the fucktards that address your little one as “that kid” instead of her name. Or those who, behind you, say they want nothing to do with you but when you’re around, act otherwise. I know you are capable of doing everything imaginable to have these people out of your life. My dearest, it is not worth it. Most importantly, they are not worth it.
You may think you’re broken but there is so much beauty in your pain. You are strong. In fact, you are stronger than anything that has tried to tear you down. You are a survivor, not a victim.
Create a meaningful life for yourself, my dearest. A life you can be proud of. Never let anyone get in the way of your goals in life. Most importantly, never give up on your passions and your dreams. Do not waste your time on people who do not believe in you. You don’t need them in your life. Surround yourself with those who encourage and inspire you.
Not everyone you’ve met is meant to stay around forever. People will leave you. Similarly, you will also leave others. People will disappoint you, and all you can do is learn to appreciate the lessons they’ve taught you. Gracefully let go of things (and people) that aren’t meant for you. Accept things the way they are.
Above all, learn to completely love yourself, before you attempt on loving another. People who’ve left don’t define you. How you respond to their absence doesn’t define you, either. You don’t need anyone else’s approval, love or friendship to be whole.
You are not a failure. You are strong, brave and honest. And you will overcome it all. I’ve got you, and this time I will put you first.
You are smart, beautiful and worth it. You deserve the world. Now, go get it!
Love for eternity,